im in shape. round is a shape

Current mood: preoccupied


Struggle endlessly. Self hate and hate of the world. Disdain in the form of flesh. Play pretend. Suffocate under pounds of calories. Bottles promise results. Shiny and colorful. All we want to be. Vogue in a can. Dreams of shoulder blades and pelvic arches. Open up and feel the truth. Climb the walls to occupy time. Counting down the minutes to count down the pounds. Can't stand suicide. New form of death. Fighting to feel free. Ribcage Alcatraz. Flesh that won't fall off. Carve it away. Self mutilation without intent. Lost curves and affections. Locked away for life. Change what god gave you. Change fate. Dieing to do so. Unwelcome mirrors and clothes. Spend life nude to save the risk of bigger sizes. Code of behavior and tendencies of society. Push harder only to fall farther. Up when you'd die to go down. Welcome to this world. Self control in the form of one less calorie. Become everything you hate. Become everything you desire. Live for it. Starve for it. Die for it. Willing to, are you?